Yerka... the bike that is a bike lock...

Yerka Bike... if nothing else... it is interesting

NYC Cousins gather with DC Cousins

when I was a small child my cousin Jon coined a phrase... "you are my special friends"
this statement was of his cousins
he was in the early days of elementary school when he said this
but this did not make the statement any less profound

cousins are special friends

last week my sister's kids were in town visiting their grandmother
my boys were stoked to get to see their New York Cousins
because their cousin's are their special friends

we got to see a screening of a movie that was made based off a children's book written by my sister's mother inlaw
good seeing everyone... the movie was entertaining
the movie used the book title, but loosely followed the story line
I guess that is "artistic lisence?" 
or maybe that is Hollywood

the movie screening was downtown so I walked down to the White House with the my brother and an assortment of cousins
then after that we went and played some croquet, Kan Jam, and then 500

and then there was this guy out front the White House

ran into my brother on his bike on my way home from work... no it did not hurt...

Gwadzilla on Tumblr

photo of my brother and myself at the Georgetown entrance of the Capital Crescent Trail 

my Gwadzilla stuff is either here... or Facebook


I agree and I disagree....

Henry Rollins had a response to Robin William's Death
F_ck Suicide by Hank Garfield 

Henry is right and Henry is wrong
I agree... but I disagree
suicide is not a rational action
it is not a selfish act

suicide is an irrational act
a desperate act
caving into the chemical imbalances that are causing pain and feeding the mind with unhealthy thoughts
suicide is an effort to kill the pain
to stop that the suffocation that depression is causing

Robin Williams?

who did I grow up that died by their own hand?

Chip Cashel? someone help me out here... there is a list...

that girl that killed Cassie that killed herself in the all girl's dorm in college... the same night that my best friend Damian was hit and killed by a car... I was resentful of her for not respecting life more...



Rollins on Nat Geo

Henry Rollins was a teen idol of mine... even if he was not a Teen Idle but the lead man of SOA instead

any body can have a bad day
there can be gray days
but suicidal depression is something else completely

Facebook and Birthdays... everybody's favorite day on Facebook

Happy Birthday to Me!

today is my birthday... yes, happy birthday to me

life does not always go as planned
today is a tough day
as we often take days like this to access where we are

where am I?
where am I headed?
I know where I have been but I am not quite sure where I am going

perhaps I need to focus on the positive and not dwell on the negative

I am really trying
but really... not seeing too much positive front and center

oh yes... my kids... yes, my kids... I love my awesome kids
they are the best thing in my world
and yes... they are awesome
that is something positive... I never forget that positive component of my life

Dean and Grant are happy, healthy, and whole
they make me so proud
they are good kids with so much to be proud of
I do love them so much

and my dog is good too
Didg is a good dog and fine companion 
so yes... another positive
things are sounding better already

then what am I so grumpy about?
oh... my elbow... my darn right arm and my gimp elbow

I still have not recovered from my elbow injury in the spring
in fact... I think I re-injured myself earlier this week
crashed my mountain bike while riding Rosaryville with my boys

lots of pain... stiffness.... and unhappiness
sorry... that injury does have a ripple effect on the rest of my life
my would be could be active life

a life that is still active... but significantly less active

not being able to used my right arm dictates a great deal of what I can or can not do

and well... the job
the job is not paying as much as I need
I can deal with the job not being the dream job
not everyone gets a dream job
but... I need a job that pays more money
looking... actively looking...

again... perspective
low paying job is better than no job
and this job may be the gateway to a better paying more stable job

in my short life I have lost a number of friends
death is around us

friends... I have friends
but I need to be a better friend
I think I have driven people way with my negativity
I am trying to be less negative
I am trying to dwell less on my weaknesses
but then... I do not want to sound like I am boasting if I focus on my strengths

what to do... what to do...

yes... there is much good in my world
need to focus on that
I have family... I have friends... yes my injury to my elbow has created certain temporary limitations
but in reality... I have my health
there are so many that contend with worse

a birthday is like New Year's Day
it is a day of hope and a day of reflection
I need to look at the positive
not to hide the negative
I need to reflect on the both the positive and the negative
but the positive needs more of my attention

life is good
I love life
my life is good
I need to keep things in perspective

there is more to my life than the bike and bicycle racing
I am really just a bicycle commuter who likes to mountain bike
I do not train... there are not coaches, power taps, supplements... just me and my bikes
my squeaky broken bikes

really... comparisions are not always healthy
but it is a good way to measure reality
so many others deal with worse than my current issues
there is death
there is bankruptcy 
there is cancer
there is so much more
me... I am sad because I do not have utopia

2014 has been an interesting year
this year I turn 47
today I turn 47
not sure when my midlife crisis is going to happen

maybe my midlife crisis is happening now

mid life crisis?
do I buy a convertible?
do I buy a motorcycle?
do I get a tattoo?
all these things sound great
but how do I know that this is mid-life crisis
how long can I milk this for?

I need to take this moment of "reflection" to aid in progressing forward
I need to take an honest look in the mirror
I need to take credit and blame for who I am and for who I am not
I am not the guy in the above photo... but I am the guy in the reflection in his sun glasses
but I need to look deeper
a metaphorical reflection

I need to reconnect with myself
I need to reconnect with the things I love

I need to trim some fat
both literally and figuratively 

I need to rekindle my love for these things
take a step back and regroup
then approach these things again

yes... I need to do something with the Gwadzilla archives
I have rough drafts of photo books
I need to make these accessible to the public
already so much has been lost to broken hard drives and inoperable computers

my boys... my boys are not babies any more
but they are not yet ready to move forward without my influence
they are 10 and 13
not 20 and 23

there have been milestones and achievements
there need to be more milestones and achievements
no... I do not expect A&E to do a biography on me
no... I do not expect to make the Forbes list
I am not done producing

I view myself as being a late bloomer
I am counting on myself being a late bloomer

yes... PACE
Positive Attitude Changes Everything
I need to SET THE PACE
move forward as there is no going back

Happy Birthday to Me.

today is a good day
there is a whole lot of good in my world
I need to remind myself of this


Throw Back Thursday... on Saturday... on my Birthday!

this is funny... 
lots of fashion on my end... not much of it good
thanks for sending the shot Kate


on Prince of Petworth

Photo by PoPville flickr user yostinator
From MPD last night:
“Good evening, recently MPD members were in the vicinity of the 3000 block of 14th when they observed a subject steal a bicycle by using bolt cutters. MPD units quickly apprehended the subject without incident and recovered the bicycle. As a reminder, making your bicycle hard to steal and registering your bicycle with the MPD can help prevent this crime. Also, please report all bicycle thefts so that the MPD can keep abreast of theft patterns. Thank you.”


MYBIKELAW is now Bike Law... and it has grown... Bike Law is going nation wide... we have Bike Law representatives in Maryland... what about DC and Virginia?

legal representation for cyclists by cyclists
legal representative that understands your cycling perspectives and your cycling position
this is not a commercial
this is a PSA

if you have a bicycle related legal case
you need a bicycle specific lawyer

DC had Ed Kearny... Ed has since passed
who knows of a good lawyer with the bicyclist's perspective in the DMV
share their contact information
have them become part of the Bike Law Network

I would love to have a lawyer that I knew was approved by my peers as someone who could represent me and my perspective with skill beyond competence 

Bike Law is setting that standard

some reference to MyBikeLaw on the Gwadzilla page

cleanest tire in the tour...

Go Russell Go!

Bobsled Drive... my memory is faint... it looks like they leveled all the houses on this road and put in new ones... I think we lived at the top on the right hand side of the road

me and my brother
that is me on the viewer left
the little one with an attitude

we lived outside of Boston on Bobsled Drive

there are "drive thru" businesses... how about "bike up" businesses?

Food Trucks
does your town have "food trucks?"

when the food truck is vacant "bike up" works
but if there were a long queue?
locking the bike works better
the same for the ATM

Summertime... swimming in the local watering hole is a ride of passage

Dan throwing a stick for his dog Didg 
I threw a stick for my dog Charlie in this same spot when I was roughly the same age

Gold Mine Loop
a glance at this map aids my understanding of the trails
early into our adventure I realized I had taken a left when I should have taken a right
but accepted that "the journey is the destination"

the boys all gave me some resistance on the Billy Goat option
so we settled for the Gold Mine loop

it is the last week of summer vacation before school
the boys are not signed up for camp
I signed on to entertain the boys for this last week
took the week off work to spend the week with the boys

it has been a heavily scheduled summer with all the camps
the boys really want some "down time"

I can grant them a certain degree of down time
but really
down time is screen time
and there needs to be some sort of measure as to how much screen time I can allow

I have memories of meeting Brook Shields while we each were riding our bikes on the Gold Mine Loop
it was kinda cool... she was not far of from her prime
she was definitely more attractive than your average person

I understand that there are certain rules
but there are other rules in life as well
be safe... be smart... be respectful
love and life life

Didg had a good time for sure